About Laura Davis Hays
About Incarnation
“Do you think I’m crazy?” Kelsey asks Marigold, the dream therapist.
“I hardly know you.”
“But I’m hearing voices. Voices are standard for crazy people, aren’t they?”
“And saints.”
So begins an odyssey into the strange visionary world where Kelsey sees, hears, feels, and tastes the life of a young woman chosen to save an ancient land from destruction. As Kelsey’s learns more of the green-eyed saint’s story, she is drawn into a complicated parallel reality where the voice tells her:
Be better than I was. Be wiser and more courageous. You are my future and I offer you this: I will protect you with all the power of my past.
“It’s stronger. More immediate, more experiential. I feel … as if I’m becoming her,” Kelsey tells Marigold as she seeks to understand what is happening to her and what she must do. “Is it a karmic debt?”
“Karma doesn’t have to be about faults. We have entanglements, meetings, fates that coincide. Perhaps debt is the wrong word.”
Yet there is something to make right.
There’s the crystal that everyone wants:
Kelsey closed her fingers around the stone and for a moment she and Irma were in a tug of war. It was starting all over again, the desire, the stone soaking up the attention, making a play for the new admirer. Look at it glow.
There’s the scientific crisis in the modern world—the engineered organism let loose in a Caribbean paradise:
She was close to the beach now, and the dead fish were thick. She felt the sand come up and strike her knee. She crawled through the lacy surf talking to the smallest of the swimmers.
You must help each other, she told them through the crystal. Do not kill. You must not kill.
There’s the spurned suitor who travels through time to find her, then won’t let her go:
“Don’t you think you owe me something?” he asks.
“You’re not who I thought you were.” She was thinking of him in the beginning, his charm, his seductive politeness.
His face colored. “Not that name you called, Jarad, but the other one, the bad one.”
Then there’s the storm:
Cast off with her nemesis in a Belizean waters, Kelsey relieves her nightmare. A new wave forms out to sea. A wall of water rushes toward us. It towers all the way up to the black sky. We are under it, we are over it, we ride it toward the shore. But the shore is gone now. There is no fire, no land, no people.
Only water.
With a different ending this time:
She could stop this dance, however beautiful, however fated. It was what she’d been born to do.
She didn’t understand herself; each moment was unfolding fresh. Her actions took no premeditation from the past, only its knowledge embedded in her cells. That and the voices, repeating their words and memories until she no longer could do anything but act.
And a karmic resolution:
Before you lived it, I had not known that we were halfway up the spiral of enlightenment, and that each attempt is perfect and blessed.
I had not known that where there is murder, there is forgiveness, where there is hatred, there is love, where there is failure, there is success. In death, there is birth. And rebirth.
I bless you and I thank you.
Now go in peace.
“I hardly know you.”
“But I’m hearing voices. Voices are standard for crazy people, aren’t they?”
“And saints.”
So begins an odyssey into the strange visionary world where Kelsey sees, hears, feels, and tastes the life of a young woman chosen to save an ancient land from destruction. As Kelsey’s learns more of the green-eyed saint’s story, she is drawn into a complicated parallel reality where the voice tells her:
Be better than I was. Be wiser and more courageous. You are my future and I offer you this: I will protect you with all the power of my past.
“It’s stronger. More immediate, more experiential. I feel … as if I’m becoming her,” Kelsey tells Marigold as she seeks to understand what is happening to her and what she must do. “Is it a karmic debt?”
“Karma doesn’t have to be about faults. We have entanglements, meetings, fates that coincide. Perhaps debt is the wrong word.”
Yet there is something to make right.
There’s the crystal that everyone wants:
Kelsey closed her fingers around the stone and for a moment she and Irma were in a tug of war. It was starting all over again, the desire, the stone soaking up the attention, making a play for the new admirer. Look at it glow.
There’s the scientific crisis in the modern world—the engineered organism let loose in a Caribbean paradise:
She was close to the beach now, and the dead fish were thick. She felt the sand come up and strike her knee. She crawled through the lacy surf talking to the smallest of the swimmers.
You must help each other, she told them through the crystal. Do not kill. You must not kill.
There’s the spurned suitor who travels through time to find her, then won’t let her go:
“Don’t you think you owe me something?” he asks.
“You’re not who I thought you were.” She was thinking of him in the beginning, his charm, his seductive politeness.
His face colored. “Not that name you called, Jarad, but the other one, the bad one.”
Then there’s the storm:
Cast off with her nemesis in a Belizean waters, Kelsey relieves her nightmare. A new wave forms out to sea. A wall of water rushes toward us. It towers all the way up to the black sky. We are under it, we are over it, we ride it toward the shore. But the shore is gone now. There is no fire, no land, no people.
Only water.
With a different ending this time:
She could stop this dance, however beautiful, however fated. It was what she’d been born to do.
She didn’t understand herself; each moment was unfolding fresh. Her actions took no premeditation from the past, only its knowledge embedded in her cells. That and the voices, repeating their words and memories until she no longer could do anything but act.
And a karmic resolution:
Before you lived it, I had not known that we were halfway up the spiral of enlightenment, and that each attempt is perfect and blessed.
I had not known that where there is murder, there is forgiveness, where there is hatred, there is love, where there is failure, there is success. In death, there is birth. And rebirth.
I bless you and I thank you.
Now go in peace.